In order to get myself a little bit socialized, I have been to numbers of party in my dorm. No offence, I don't know if it's just me, but frankly speaking, I just don't see it exciting to get drunk and dance by yourself in a small dorm pad with a Katy Perry's firework. I mean I do get it it when it comes to clubbing, where the DJ properly puts on dancing beats, where there are dancing floor, bar station, and lounges, but dorm? Naw.
So when I went to a dorm party, I always ended up standing and stoning myself, feeling really discouraged to just strike up one conversation. People called me arrogant and antisocial, but honestly I am not. I am just, I don't know, awkward? shy? or maybe because english is not my first language, so it is kind of hard for me to bump into a slang conversation or anything related to what's in for canadians. But that's not so true either, I believe I just don't click with people here.
However, I don't even give a damn on what would people think about me. I just feel sad that I've lost such a priceless life that I used to live in. I am not saying liquors, weed, and all college things are no fun. But, I used to be surrounded with people who didn't even care if I was ever cool. People who thought rock is better than Wiz Khalifa. People whom I shared love and life perspectives with. People who would hang out with me, no matter stupid or careless I was. People who didn't judge or tell me what to do.
Life was simply meaningful back then. While, no offence, people I met here are rather materialistic. Everybody is down to get high, fuck, and earn lots of money. I know there's nothing wrong with it, but sometimes, life is not always about that, you know. Love is not about getting laid or girlfie-boyfie. Money doesn't always define happiness. Wearing branded things doesn't always make you look good. Being impulsive is not the only way to get friends. Seriously? humanize yourself! These things are just ... overrated, or at least for me. I swear I fucking want to go home, ugh.
Moral of the story: If you think people around you are such a keeper, do not ever let them go, or worse, leave them.
