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I keep having 8-9 hours of night sleep and  2-4 hours of nap every single day. I forget when exactly I started doing this, it's been going on for so long like if I could get paid for sleeping, I would have been Donald Trump. Seriously, all I've been doing these days are just lock myself up in my room, listen to records all day, then get back to sleep. I've been very very lazy. I don't eat out much anymore, I don't come to parties anymore, I don't take pictures, I am basically just dead.

Is it wrong? Is it wrong that my mood tells me not to care about anything? Is it wrong if all I wanna do is ... geeve?

I would want to use the remote from 'click', and put just couple more weeks on autopilot. Cause you know what, this feels so fucking good. I don't need meth or weed, I just want to sleep and have the luxury to ignore all shits happening in the world.

I don't care if Jackie hires somebody else for her lookbook. I don't care if I don't get that fucking honours pin. I don't care if I don't get to finish my book and get it published. I don't care if war's started somewhere (okay that sounds terrible), but I just don't. Um, well ...  I do care about school. My finals are in two weeks, and I know I've sacrificed a lot to be here, I don't want to disappoint my parents either, but, I just want to fucking sleep and find everything is fucking normal when I am ready to wake up. Is that really too much to ask?